ever once did you have a goal?
waited all your life just to hear no,
ever once did you have a dream
mine was shattered to pieces
ripped at the seems

you can tell me yes
you can tell me no
you can say all the wrong answers
but it's just what you know.
you can say it's wrong
try to show me right,
you can try to fight in my corner
but I'm losing this fight.

help me a drowning in a sea of cold glass
broken shards of the mirror,
 rocks thrown from the ghosts of my past
Help me I'm falling, into the traps of my mind
blinded by reflection
you cant stop me NO.
I'm running out of time.

I look in the mirror and see the only
enemy I need is me
need help with reality
help me to find clarity
so sick of fucking eyes filled
with sincerity


every where I go it's a spot light in my direction,
 I try to dodge it all I want but I've no protection
my armour of secrets have rusted off
 and it's no surprise that I'm living in a game
where there is no prize
 and the people all around me see the cracks I hide
night time, lights off.
 every body fast asleep
but the battle in my minds slowed just for me
I re-trace my steps in my dreams
but there never gonna shield me from the venom that leaks

get up out of bed to hear the floor boards creek
open the door just to run



AWAY.

Sunlight slashes through the dark

while my eyes adjust

sleep has been a faithful friend one in whom I trust

the night time films run its turn and now I face the day
while

                                      black and white nostalgic frames have flickered to a grey

                                   "so why?" I hear you ask, do I lament the lost nights load

                                   well, daytimes damaged curving paths lead me to broken roads

while porcelain glass covers my face and yes, how I loath the social rumour 

I guard the walls with fighting knights who's ammunition's humour

hollowed mind and tired flame rot close to decay,

                                              while I wait with heavy eyes while

                                                sunlight introduces day